Girlfriend Therapy Conference 2014 was A-ma-Zing! God revealed Himself in such an awesome way and I was truly humbled. Leading up to this great day I was dealing with some personal challenges and I was feeling most inadequate for the task ahead. I spent countless hours fasting and praying in preparation for the conference but still I felt as if I was not ready; I felt like I was not in the right space to pour into the lives of women. I called on all of my spiritual mentors and shared with them my feelings and of course each of them encouraged me to press in.
On Saturday, March 22, 2014 I stood before a gathering of close to 200 women and I shared with them the message that was in my heart – In The Word! Throughout this message I talked about the issues that I had been dealing with months leading up to the conference. I shared with them my frustrations with the “church” and I shared with them God’s response to my frustrations which was found in the book of Jude 1:3,”Dear friends, although I was very eager to write to you about the salvation we share, I felt compelled to write and urge you to contend for the faith that was once for all entrusted to God’s holy people.” Contend for the Faith! That was my charge, that was my message. Despite what people my do or say particularly those in the church – I must always remember that I too am the church and I must be a true example of the church for the world to see and be encouraged by – not discouraged by.
I realized that I was feeling unprepared to pour into the lives of the women because my heart was heavy with disappointment and I thought that I ought to deal with my disappointment before I could speak to the ladies. I thought that my message would come out angry or frustrated and I thought that would be displeasing to God. Moments before I was to take the stage I found a corner and spoke to God (I didn’t need a corner but that’s where I found myself). I asked God to curve my tongue and if He didn’t want my message to come out with the level of “passion” that I was feeling then I would need for Him to soften my words. I took to the stage and I started to speak very soft and very slow as I shared briefly my Holy Discontent with the church. I settled in my spirit as I shared with the ladies the question that the Holy Spirit posed to me, “Are you not the church?” And with that the stage was set for what I felt was the most passionate and authentic message that I ever gave.
God blessed me greatly through the delivery of that message. He showed me that He truly have, “Put the words in my mouth” (Jeremiah 1:5-10). The feedback that I received from those in attendance was affirming – come to find out there are a lot of people feeling frustrated with the state of the church right now. Many have walked away from the church with no desire to return. What God allowed me to do in the midst of my frustration was share my heart with the ladies so that I could reach their hearts and allow Him to heal us all. One final note, I just got this revelation, I realized that God will use our real time situations and circumstances to not only to fix us but to minister to others. It may sound elementary but it really is a deep revelation.
So the moral of the message is, no matter what you are going through don’t ever think that you are not ripe for God to use, He will use your passion, your frustration and your brokenness to help restore the nation!

Check out my message from Girlfriend Therapy Conference 2014: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wnbtzKF1P_M&list=UUMqSCfJGPXPdHHDf4NIaTAA&feature=share&index=1

Blessings,
Kwanza